The one
that get away
Rejection
how much can you take? Goodbyes , how can you resist ? how can this traumatic
experience agonize you day and night that you have to endure?
In a day where I felt exploding due to my over thinking
of my requirements that torturedbrain. I felt overload so I decided to eat in
the fast food chain . I found myself in heaven “ the food calling” while eating
my dish called lasagna “ohh look whose here” I cant possibly forget this
crap I saw this devastating gawds I have
to get out of here asap! Telling myself
seeing the guy in the right corner, I know him yes ! his the one who creates scars on
me but anyways my distress is
understandable and I honestly
experience the stages of grief before I
made a perfect smile without pain ! I
considered this as “grief nako lines “ like saying this cant be over! Maybe
hell change his mind in two or three days
until days passed I denied and denied telling myself “ no! who he think he is in doing such thing to
me ? Excuse me ! and be alone in my bed quite thinking about myself “Im not that
pretty not that smart no one likes me”
but at the end I realized that if I
stuck myself thinking about it then Im killing myself softly ! all I have to bear in mind is time drives and
it will make me back like before .
Vince , the guy I’m referring before the one that gives me a strange feeling of belongness . we
talk for a long time if im on
grief hes there to comfort me! He cheers and often give me hes sense of care over a period of time our
emotional bond grew ! throughout the day vince text and calls me with
expression of endearment !
But suddenly he
just appear on my front one day so
strange and so cold and says “
just take care always goodbye” I felt
confuse then he just smirked at me! I
thought he is just going to somewhere or anywhere away from my sight. But its not he is not
just getting away from me , instead he
is leaving ! that night I have died
waiting for his text call or chat by that time there’s already an idea comes on my mind that I shouldn’t fool ! and
not giving time to those who don’t even
have the effort to give time on me!
As the days
passed by , I find my strength to ask him if
what bothering him for not giving his time and have a distance on me. “ do I smell bad this following days? Hello?” then he reply so
cold and emotionless” I’m very sorry for treating you this! Im sorry but I love someone and im almost courting here! I knew I’ve hurt you and one of those guy you’ve hated! I knew you can find there someone better! As he continued. I
was devastated I felt numb with shock I
become mentally and physically exhausted . I cant take it anymore my body absorb all the pain
around!
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